In my late teens and early twenties, I moved through what many would call a dark night of the soul. Living in New York City, attending college, and trying to stay afloat, I felt as though everything was slipping out of control. As an athlete and someone deeply focused on health, I reached for the tools I knew in an attempt to create order. In that process, I developed an eating disorder that I hid carefully from my family and peers.
For several years, I lived a double reality: avoiding dinner tables, spending hours on a treadmill, learning to purge in secret, and wearing a bright smile to cover the pain. On the outside, I was succeeding — earning straight A’s, working multiple jobs, and maintaining a full social life. Inside, I was struggling deeply.
I was able to keep it hidden until I couldn’t. A dear friend, now also part of the therapeutic arts, stepped in. She sat with me and told me she saw me — really saw me — beneath the polished surface. That moment brought an unexpected sense of relief. My shadow had been named, placed between us, and met with genuine care.
I began therapy, and not long after, yoga and meditation entered my life. I still remember crying in my first yoga class and feeling, for the first time, safe in my body. Slowly, I began to rebuild my sense of self. Through a blend of ancient and modern healing practices, I started the long journey back home to myself. Over the next 10 years, I devoted myself to practice, learning, healing, and developing the capacity to hold a safe and supportive space for soul exploration and integration.
Over time, I began working with a range of plants. The consciousness-altering plant allies I now hold close in my journey include Santa Maria, also known as Cannabis, Psilocybin, MDMA, and Ayahuasca. I also work with non-psychedelic fungi and plants to support harmony and well-being across all levels of my being.
I regard these plants as teachers and allies, as mysterious supports offered through Great Spirit — the nameless benevolent force woven through all of life. They have played a profound role in my healing, expansion, and return to myself. I hold deep reverence for the plants, and for the cultures, lands, and peoples who have cared for them. Their power is immense, and they deserve the deepest respect.
My work brings together ancient and modern wisdom traditions, creating space for people to soften into greater openness within body, mind, and heart. I remain grateful for my own dark night of the soul, because I know there are many blessings to be found within darkness. I do not turn away from it, and I support those I work with by entering whatever spaces their soul is asking to be witnessed in.
I am the woman I am because of the path I walk, and I am honored to walk it with you.